"SweetEst" World

"One reason we don’t see God do great things is because we only ask Him for small things. Most..."

Sat, 18 May 2013 00:09:34 +0800

“One reason we don’t see God do great things is because we only ask Him for small things. Most people pray over their food, pray for protection, or pray for wisdom. That’s all good, but don’t limit what God can do. Dare to ask God for something impossible, something out of ordinary.”

- Today’s Word by. Joel & Victoria Osteen

“Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to...

Sat, 04 May 2013 19:23:54 +0800

“Patience is not the ability to wait, but the ability to keep a good attitude while waiting.” (Joyce Meyer)

Absolutely! :)

Sat, 04 May 2013 19:19:10 +0800

Absolutely! :)

Update on my patient with no diagnosis

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 10:18:52 +0800

I like this part: “We don’t win every fight, but when the curtain goes down, let it drop with dignity.”

blue-lights-and-tea:

Well, its been nearly 2 weeks. We’re still not sure what the diagnosis is exactly but we think its a vasculitis. The patient has now gone into 5 organ failure. There is no coming back from this.

Liver function is now deteriorating.

Renal function is non existant, haematuria still present and is relying on haemofiltration.

Pulmonary - still having haemorrhagic sputum, dropping sats and having major difficulties in being weaned off the ventilator

GI - a distended abdomen, passing faeculant liquid into his NGT, ?possible ischaemic bowel event, not stable for surgery

Cardiac - runs of arrythmias requiring DC cardioversion on Tues, high troponins, cardiac event

Long discussion with the family and we have decided that the best thing for this poor patient is to withdraw inotropes, filtration and let them go.

Always a sad moment, but in this world of medicine it is vital to remember to not only try to save lives but to always give the patient that needs it a “good death”. Something I heard one of the bosses talk about the other day. To know when to withdraw, when it is futile and make sure they are comfortable at all times. We don’t win every fight, but when the curtain goes down, let it drop with dignity.

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Fri, 19 Apr 2013 10:12:54 +0800

"Just don’t give up because times are hard, especially if you really want something. Keep..."

Fri, 19 Apr 2013 10:03:34 +0800

““Just don’t give up because times are hard, especially if you really want something. Keep fighting for what you want until you can’t fight anymore… until giving up is the only option left…””

- Gossip Girl

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Fri, 22 Mar 2013 23:34:39 +0800

I’m in love with the idea of being in love. <3

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 23:16:15 +0800

I’m in love with the idea of being in love. <3

“Nowadays people know the price of everything and the...

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 22:41:18 +0800

“Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing.” (Oscar Wilde)

My Current Status Quo

Sun, 10 Mar 2013 22:36:00 +0800

Well, since I graduated on February and got my college degree for medicine, I’ve got nothing much to do. I am currently being jobless and work-less. I still got a long long way to go before I really graduate from med school and become a doctor. Actually I am going to be a “co-assistant” for about two years at the hospital before I become a doctor, and I have to wait for about 5 or 6 months more before I become a “co-ass”, which is why I am currently jobless and work-less. I am not on holiday, but I don’t have much thing to do, but log in to my facebook or twitter account or play games. It was really fun and exciting at first, but I think I just have reached the limit of having that excitement and fun in playing those old games on facebook (like Ninja Saga or Typing Maniac) that I don’t think those things are as much fun as they were before.

Honestly I feel so excited about having lots of free times everyday. It is very exciting to finally get a long rest from college activities (which are so tiring) before I get back to the college routine and have a new life (I don’t know if being a co-ass can really be called a life or not). Even though I don’t have much interesting things to do, at least I am not bored. Actually I have lots of plans going on my mind, like going out of this city for a while, improving my knowledge about medicine, reading lots of books, playing more games, taking lots of pictures, spending more time with my family here, shopping, improving my writing skill, etc. I really do have lots of things that I have been planning to do, but so far nothing really works out the way I plan, maybe it’s because I plan too much. I really want to make my “5 months off” exciting by planning lots of good things to do, but I just don’t know how to make all my plans work in 5 months.

So, now… I still don’t know what I’m going to do next. I have no moves. I will probably just sit and wait for something good to come into my life (I really hope I don’t make it sound pathetic), or I will just finish all my unfinished books (I still have 5 books to read) while I wait for those good things which are on their ways to come. There’s a saying “Good things happen to those who wait.” I say, “Good things happen to those who wait patiently while do any other thing.” hehehe :D I really hope something good-unexpected-and-exciting will happen to me while I’m waiting, yeah whatever, at least I know what I want to do for now.

See you later, alligator.

“Perfect boys only exist in books…”

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 01:06:45 +0800

“Perfect boys only exist in books…”

Taking English Class (Again)

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 01:01:00 +0800

Okay, I am currently taking an English class again at Future Academy. It is an IELTS-basic course, so at the beginning I took an IELTS test as a replacement test (the test was damn hard but I made it until the very end of the test), then they put me on level 4 IELTS class based on my results. I was very surprised when I knew the people at the Academy were surprised with my result and my brother’s, they said it was rare to find new students reach level 4 on the first IELTS test in this city, so I assumed that my score was pretty good for a newbie in this city of course. I don’t even know my score and I don’t think I wanna know, I mean I don’t care, I have seen those people’s reactions and it’s enough for me to understand.

Honestly I don’t even know why I do this or why I want to do this. It is my mom’s idea actually. She (always) thinks that it is important for me and my brother to know and speak English (fluently), even though we are now med students and don’t use English at college (although sometimes we are forced by lecturers to read English textbooks or slides). She always believes that English will be very useful someday in the future and that someday I will find out that what she believes is true. She doesn’t have to wait for that “someday in the future” to prove that learning English is very important and useful, because I have realized that since I was still in high school. Knowing English has helped me a lot with many things like schools, homework, college, communication, etc.

So about this English class I am taking, honestly I feel so excited about it. At first I thought it was going to be a waste of time, but it’s not. The class is very fun, very very fun. Even though all the teachers are local teachers (but have experienced studying English abroad), I should admit that the class is fun and so far I have learned a lot. I take English class 3 days in a week from 5 p.m to 7 p.m every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. Monday and Wednesday are for grammar class, and Friday is for academic speaking class. I write and speak a lot there in English, and I think my English starts to improve a lot now especially my English vocabulary. Yeah, there in Future Academy we have a “50 new vocabularies” project every meeting, so I take that project seriously.

I am believer totally. I believe that things happen for a reason, a good reason. If I get the chance to learn English again now, I believe that I am currently being prepared for something greater in the future. Let’s just say that learning English is an investment for my future.

Keep the spirit. Keep the faith. Keep moving on. GOD bless. :)

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Tue, 05 Mar 2013 00:03:32 +0800

"But you make me wanna act like a girl, paint my nails and wear perfume… For you make me so..."

Mon, 04 Mar 2013 23:57:00 +0800

“But you make me wanna act like a girl, paint my nails and wear perfume… For you make me so nervous, that I just can’t hold your hand…”

- Demi Lovato (Heart Attack)

Worrying won’t stop the bad stuff from happening. It just...

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 17:44:15 +0800

Worrying won’t stop the bad stuff from happening. It just stops you from enjoying the good. So don’t worry, be happy. :)

Absolutely :))

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 17:41:04 +0800

Absolutely :))

Things My Tumblr Page Have Missed

Tue, 19 Feb 2013 17:38:09 +0800

Okay, I haven’t updated my tumblr page since like forever, because I was very busy taking care of my college life here. And I thank GOD so many times, because I finally got my college degree for medicine, which means I am getting closer to become a doctor.

Well, after the graduation ceremony… I realize that it is not the end. Not yet. It’s only the beginning. It’s the start of something new, and something more challenging, because after this… with the blessings of GOD, I am going to be a co-assistant at the hospital for about 2 years before I can get my “medical doctor” title. I am so happy and excited for that. I do realize that with this medical degree I own, I have bigger responsibilities to take now and I have to work hard to be responsible of it. I believe I can. :)

Actually this good news is not the only thing that I am going to share here. Since my page has missed lots of things about me, I really want to tell here what else have happened to me while I was absent updating my page.

1. I have done working on my thesis since January and I had my exam for the thesis in 22nd January.

2. I am now taking an English class (again) in Future Academy since I am not busy now. I took their IELTS test and they said my score was pretty good to get me to the IELTS level 4 class.

3. I am currently working-out with my body at the gym, because I have gained 5 pounds since December and it sucks. I don’t wanna be a fat lady seriously. And it feels good and fit.

4. I lost my two cell phones on 8 February in one day. :’( Don’t want to tell the story here. It was very shocking and whatever. Damn snatcher!

5. I got my college degree for medicine on 12 February, and attended the graduation ceremony on 14 February (on Valentine’s Day).

6. I currently am happy now with things that are going on lately.

7. All thanks and praises to my Creator, GOD… :)

So I think that’s all for now. :)) GOD bless y all…

Thought via Path

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 17:06:25 +0800

It’s weird that people who judge you are usually those who know nothing about you and your story… (personal thought) :) – Read on Path.

I’m busy getting stronger…. :)

Sun, 03 Feb 2013 13:11:11 +0800

I’m busy getting stronger…. :)

About Me #09 : I get attached easily and tightly with people or things.

Sun, 03 Feb 2013 13:08:23 +0800

Yeah… Once I feel emotionally connected with some things or people (which happens often), I get attached too them tightly. And once I lose them, it’s really hard to let go of them.

It happened when I lost my 2 cell phones… :| It was hard to let go of them… I guess I should really learn to let go and move on… It’s life… People lose things everyday… Right?